Can I Build It

  
  That really isn't a question. I can build it. But will I is the real question. Should I,  what's with all the questions? I spent some time last night looking at cannons. I kind of want to build one. I have enough tools to do so. I could always use more. But really who couldn't use more tools. I really want to build one. So maybe the question should be why? That's where I fall into the trap. What trap you may ask? The trap where I have no good reason to build it. I could always come up with an excuse I guess. Could call it a learning experience, the 4th of July is coming, I don't have a cannon. I'm sure the list could go on.


 But still not sure if I will. I really know why I want to build it. I want to build it for a friend. However I'm not sure we are friends anymore. Sometimes things just happen, misunderstanding
and all of that. So I'm kind of afraid to build it. I don't want to think about the drama. I don't want the
memories. I still want to build a cannon.


 Life is tough sometimes. Seems nothing can be easy. If I do something I give 110 percent or nothing at all. That 110 percent may not seem like it some days. I  give it all I have at the time or I just don't bother at all. I never seen the point of half-assing things. Do them right or at least attempt too. Some people can get away with just good enough. I can't. Sometimes things don't work out no matter how much effort you put forth. Does that mean you shouldn't try?


This morning I few drawings of a possible proto type. I'm sure if I build it things will change as its constructed. I just needed a rough idea of what it was I would hope to build.

Blood Sweat and Tears

Hopefully not much blood, it happens though. Probably not much sweat its a

bit cool out. More than anything tears will affect me the most

if I go ahead and build this cannon.

Even with a few tears in my eyes at the moment, I still want a tiny cannon

to call my very own.

                                                                                                          Mo

Red White and Blue

  Still feeling a bit out of it. No quite myself by any means. I forced myself to try to create something. Anything at all. Art is a passion a love of sorts. Its a feeling an emotion on what ever media that you decide to use. Art is like writing a book or telling a story. An image can speak volumes. It says more then then just words. It can invoke emotions and thoughts on thoughts viewing, reading or watching it. Some people create art for money, but a true artist does it for love. The love of giving to the world there emotions, feeling, and thoughts.


  Sharing feeling thoughts and emotions don't always come easy. It can drain your very essence.
Art was once an escape from the horrors of everyday life, for me. It allowed me just to be me.
It gave me things to think about that took my mind off strains of life. Somewhere along the line
things blurred. What used to relieve so much stress, tension and anxiety, now floods my mind with
sad feeling and emotions I wish on no one.


 I was not always so kind. Was not always that generous. As I grew up, I tried very hard to be thoughtful generous and kind. Always tried to think of others first. Apparently sometimes others will
believe your kindness and generosity has a ulterior motive. They turn your kindness and generosity into greed and lies. I can be very overwhelming at times, I know this. This however gives no one the right to tell me lies or to spread half truths  They tell others what it is you want. When really you have no idea yourself.


 All you want is to be happy. For the people around you to be happy. All you really want is  to give
everyone a bit of what make you, well you a spark, a flame. A bit of your very essence. For them to know they have a friend.


Ok to much drama. Its time to heal. I'm sure it will be a slow process before I start to trust others. Before I want to socialize with others. At the moment I just want to be the carefree me I like to be.
Not sure when that will happen. Not sure what will happen. I do know all the pain, the heart ache and the drama is emotional overload.


They say art heals. They say a lot of things about art. Today I give the world a bit of art, a bit of my thoughts, and even a bit of myself. I call this series Red White and Blue.

I started with this base image, Funny enough it is in fact

red, white and blue. Maybe that's where the name came

from? Its not fancy, not very entertaining. It kind of looks

like a flag more then anything.  Isn't a flag a for of art.

An expression of color. A sense of pride. Ok I can carry

on a bit. I could keep going However I think you

get the idea. I had this idea about a red, white and blue image.

While this isn't exactly what I thought about, it was the

same idea.



After a bit of time, some thought and a lot of software I made the image below.

Believe it or not its nothing more the a modified version of the image above.

One may ask how did the image above turn into the image below.

That's the magic bit. A little emotion, some thought and

a lot of luck. Ok maybe a bit of skill. A bit

of knowledge perhaps. Ok to be honest I'm not

really sure. All I know Is I made it from the image above.

So let me ask you a question or two. What do you see? What

emotions does it invoke? Do you want to buy it? Ok that

last one was a joke. Do you like it?

What one do you like best? Do you see different things in each one?

You may need to click on them to see them with more detail.

I could tell you what I see in each. I could tell you what they mean. What

they stand for. But that would be cheating. Art is a very personal thing.

What it means to me and how it makes me feel, can be very different

from what other feel. Today how I feel about this piece and what I

see in it may not be the same tomorrow.

For me this is a very powerful piece. I can only hope

that the world  likes it as much as I do.

Thank You if you took the time to read this post.

I will try to limit the drama in these trying times.

Art is however emotional.

                                                                                                             Mo

                                                                       

Making of Digital Art

  The other day I decided to play around with my software a bit. Its been a while since I have actively used it. To remind me of what I could do with the software I use. I made a simple image
started. My computer I normally do graphics on went down a while ago and I never got around to fixing it. As a result I didn't have all the assets available to me as I would have if I had it bothered to fix it or at least pull the assets off of it. I thought maybe some people would like to see how I go from start to finish.




 To start I made this image this simple image. Being February I went with a heart. Ok a broken heart it happens time to time. This is what I started with.

Added a few nuts. Mostly because I didn't have fireworks as there are on the dead computer.

Then some leafs

Some more leafs

Added a few more nuts

Some marbles

A few plantets

Added a few old tools



Not sure what I added to the middle

Add a bit of media 

A few playing cards

Then the fun begins

Just playing

Till I find something I like

Keep trying new things

Changing setting

Sometimes only making small differences

 

Sometimes making a mess

Or something interesting

Sometimes even something I like

I could just continue on making images

Till I get the art I wanted to begin with

Is it done, I'm not sure is anything really done.

I hope you enjoyed the images today. Thanks for taking

the time to read my blog.

                        

                                                                                  Mo

Shattered Revisited

   


What do you know, today was not too bad. In fact I had a pretty good day for a change. I know
 they have been far and in between as of late. Was a nice change never the less. The art I am
posting to day is the  was made about the same time as the original piece posted yesterday. In fact
they both use the same base image believe it or not.

Shattered Memories
Shattered Dreams
Shattered Hopes
Make for Shattered Thoughts

Positive Hopes
Positive Dreams

 Positive Memories

 Make for positive Thoughts

                                                              

Shattered 2016  

My Body is Broken
My Mind is Failing
My soul is Crushed
My heart is Breaking

I am Sinking
I am Shaken
I am lost
I will not give up
I will stand strong

Without the will
I don't know for how long

                                                     Mo 2016

Shattered The Remakes 2017

You know what they say

No good deed goes unpunished
You are born into this world holding a hand of cards
Some of us get a good hand and others get crap
As the days go by

You gather more cards
Discard a few
And Sometimes it seems you keep drawing crap

I have heard it said you got to
know when to hold them
know when to fold them
know when to walk away
know when to run
Buts sometimes you just don't know

In cards as in life the stakes are always high
Win
Lose
Or Draw
You never come out smelling like roses

                                                                            Mo 2016

Who am I

I am no one
I am everyone
I am the friend you talked to last week
I am the person you have seen standing in the corridor
I am the one that passed you in the fast lane
I am nothing more then a shooting star

                                                                       Mo 2016

The ones I have hurt
I hope shall forgive
I may remain hurt
All the days that I live

I can only do my best and try again
Its very hard on us men

Do the right thing hold your head up high
Show no fear as you are a guy

Show no pain no weakness at all
Because if you do you could fall

Try as you will try as you might
You may not ever be able
Make things right

Hold your head up high at the end of the day
You are just a guy

Much like a kid who's heart is open and filled with joy

Love is hard and is no toy

We can easily be broken
When life holds little joy

To much time to much to do
Although we try to see it through

Tomorrow I will get up and try again
I am nothing more then a Simple man

                                                                    Mo 2016

Can you read in-between the lines?

Sometimes when it comes to the way you feel
You just can't get the right words out
Sometimes you leave people confused about

What you really mean
Or what you are Trying to convey to them
Leaving them wondering what your Intent really is
Maybe you are just ashamed
Maybe you are little hurt
Maybe you are embarrassed
Or maybe you just don't

Know how to say what you are trying to say
This leaves them trying to read between the lines

Everything is not as it seems
You always try to do the right thing
But often you are wrong
Often times when struggling you upset the ones you care so much about
Sometime everything goes so wrong
We are all human

We all do things that sometimes hurt others feelings
Even when we never meant too
More often then not it's a misunderstanding

That however makes it hurt no less on either side
Sometimes some of the thing that you do end up not only upsetting
The one you upset

 But others around them as well
Sometimes the little things hurt the most
Sometime you just don't know what to say

                                                                                    Mo 2016

Life is strange
People are weird

Not sure how life all fits together
For those of you who know me
Things have been tough

Over the last few months

You look at things different

You look at people different
You look at life a bit different

Sometimes you feel out of sorts
Sometimes you don't know how or what too feel

Its all very strange

I guess that life has its ups and downs
I hope everyone has more ups and less downs
I hope everyone remembers to have each others back

I hope everyone takes the time to think of others

I know life can sometimes throws us a curve ball

That what makes life interesting
We should all try to have fun even in the worst of times
Life is about having Fun

Doing are Best

Friends and Family
Hold toughs you love close
Do the best to protect them in there time of need
Don't let the low points of life hold you down
Cherish the Memory's

 Live for today

 Smile because it could always be worse

Try not to get upset

Try not to get mad

That never helped anyone

                                                              Mo 2016

                                            

Lots of things change with the passing of time
The changes in circumstance 
The changes in relationships 
Just as the leaves fall and the seasons change
There with be a new season 
A new day
And a reason to Keep smiling

                                                          Mo 2016

Smile for today
Laugh tomorrow

                                           Mo 2015

Life Is Wonderful
Its so Very Precious
And so Short

I Encourage
You to Follow
Your Heart and Dreams

                                                      Mo 2015

Things have been a little tough

A bit hard

I will  pick up the pieces

And carry on

I will try to

Remember what I once said

What happens

Happens

What Don't

Don't

What will

Will

And what won't

Won't

                                                  Mo

Today as I said was a good day. Maybe tomorrow will

be better? Only time will tell.

If you took the time to read this

I Thank You

                                          Mo

Take Two

I took a few minutes today to try the Valentine's picture again. I though I would go ahead and post
the origin piece I made last year. I would of preferred too  made a completely new one if I was feeling better. It just didn't happen. As I play with the software I will most likely use a few older images and re-edit them. Its a faster way to learn then to start from scratch. I have learned a lot of things seem simple and for the most part they are. Take the pens I was working on for Xmas. Its seems simple, in fact its not very hard at all. It takes forever, much longer then anyone would think it should take. Each pen takes hours to make and yet they are very simple. The same goes for art. Its not all that hard to do. It takes a lot of time, an enormous amount of energy. Feeling quite a bit down, a bit under the weather, making new art at the moment is a lot harder for me at this time. The dogs where new art from old pictures. It took me longer to find them pictures then it would of to go take new pictures. Being a complicated artist a lot of time goes into making a piece, details often others don't see.

The Original Piece from last Year 

While it seems fairly simple and really it is. This piece of art started as a crazy picture of

me, taken with a web cam. I had just gotten out of the shower and messed up my hair.

When I took the picture I had no idea what I would do with it.

I just though I looked silly. Wanting to see what I could come up with for a

self portrait using this image I started in creating.

I have no idea how many software programs where used. Most likely a few.

I can say it took at least a day, maybe two or three. In the process I tried  new

things, learned new stuff. All and all it was a good experience.

I like to experiment with art. They say a picture is a thousand words,

that a good thing because I'm no writer. I don't know if that is true.

I do know you can take one image and make a thousand pieces

of art. Or one idea for that matter.

Keeping with the heart theme, I remade the remake of the image I posted on Valentine's Day.

I think it came out a lot closer to the original, I will let you be

the judge.

The Remake Take Two in Hearts 

I think this one looks much better myself. I for the most part achieved

my goal. Its fairly close to the Original but slightly different, composed

of hearts. While not as good as the Fat Dog picture, I think it

came out great. Is it done ? I'm not sure, is anything ever really

done. Maybe it will get revisited in a year or two.

I do want to thank everyone that took a few minute's out of there

day to take a look at my blog.

As always Love it Hate it let me know. Questions and

comments are always welcome.

                                                                            Mo

 

Dog Days

 Yesterday I rushed to get something out good or not. I was having issues with my software, still am a bit. Some of which I got, some what sorted, other one is a mystery. I fixed the one of the issues or at least, did a much better job. I want to make a picture out of hearts for Valentine's Day. I did manage that at least yesterday, the result was not as good as I had hoped. At least it was better then nothing, ok maybe it was not. I will let you be the judge of that. I don’t have to like everything I do, as long as someone does its all good. At any rate I spent most the day messing about with the software, trying to figure out why it was not doing as I wanted. If it was Easter it would of been so much better. Bunny and eggs had no issues rendering what I wanted. I need to learn more about the software. I have not spent much time using it. When I first got it, I played with it a lot. But do to heath and personal reasons I have not done much of anything. I have kind of fallen out. All I ever wanted to do is make others smile and laugh. So if anything else I hope these pictures, make you smile.
          Mo


                                                                   Pretty Girl  

                                                          

Made with hearts, and with Love

A blown up section, to see

the detail

Fat Dog

Aww isn't he cute

He was a great dog he passed a few years ago

Tiny Dog

Now here is trouble

This picture didn't

turn out as well

as I had hoped

When he's not chewing on me

or inspecting me because I went

to the mail box and

I'm now new so I must be sniffed

from head to toe

He's is a great dog.

Or when he takes over my bed

Joking mostly Tiny really is a very good dog

I'm just jealous he has more energy then me.  

Thank You for taking the time to read my blog.

So what picture do you like best?

                                                         Mo

 

                                         

                                                          

 

                                             

                                

Happy Valentine's Day

     

    Hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day. At this juncture in my life great days don't come

often, even good days are hard to find. Im still nursing a broken heart, a hole in my soul, such 

as life. For me today was not much different. I didn't really do Valentines Day this year, kinda

like most days anymore I just let it slip by. While for me Valentine's is one of my favorite

holidays. Like so many other things in my life try as I might I just cant seem to get it right.

Do too past experiences I just didn't have the heart this year. It seems no matter what you do

its too little or too much. Over whelmed or under whelmed it just don't seem I can get it right

no matter how much heart or thought I put into it. For me it was just a fun Holiday to try to

make others smile, to spread Joy, Love and Laugher. Im sorry to say Im not Smiling , Laughing or

spreading much Love or Joy this year. I did manage to find just enough energy to re-hash a

picture from last year. Its been a while since I have done any real art in a while, I’m not sure

when or if I get back to it,  I lack the energy and  the motivation at this time. For me art is

not about  what you see when it gets finished. Its about the process, Its about the thought, Its

more of a feeling something not tangable. So very few people have really seen my art, all most

see is the output. It's the process of creating, that is the real art. It's the same while

holidays its not about what you get, or didn't get. Its about the process, the thought of others.

I only have this Re-hashed  Re-edited Picture I hope its good enough to make you smile.

Mo

Happy Valentine's Day